Currently I have had a boyfriend for 3 years... I am so disrupted by the treatment that I have had... Things were different before.... Now it seems that everything is different and I am not even on his mind...
Everything that I have ever wanted to do or wished to do, it has never happened... It seems as if all my wishes and wants he has accomplished with his friends... is it because i have no friends... What is my life coming to... I wonder what in my life could ever occur to deserve treatment of loniliness and depression... I feel so lonely and depressed. Life for me is different... I am always on my computer... and the only other thing i do is visit my boyfriend... and it seems when i do visit him it is as if he doesn't notice my presence... My life passes me bye... and i fall in memories of how it used to be or how I wish it could be.... It seems that my boyfriend forgets all the good times we have had... and just looks forward to the worst... My life is passing me by and i have no one to be there with me... I stand on the edge just waiting to fall... God i am lifeless and in despair... I am nothing and I strive for the greatest with the worst influences... I am the type to devote my life to one thing... and it seems that the one thing i have devoted my life to, just takes advantage of it...
Well life goes on, just not for me.